I've been feeling refreshingly vulnerable lately. Two weeks ago I was thinking about pushing myself to do something to be out of my comfort zone. I joined a gym and I go to a 5:15am morning cycle class on the Tuesday and Thursdays that I don't work and I have been trying to swim on Mondays, Wednesdays, Fridays. I swam at dusk last friday and it was gorgeous outside. There's something really cool about physical exertion that seems to awake all your senses. After a good work out everything tastes, smells, feels.. better. I really love pushing myself to go to bed earlier, waking myself up in the morning, and pushing myself to peddle harder or swim faster, the soreness pays off and I feel stronger each day.
But, I felt that I needed to exercise myself in another area, and this was in the area of songwriting. When I write a song I feel that same "aliveness" that I do when I get a good work out in. I talked with Mark about doing a song a day for the month of February by asking friends to give me topics and then writing about whatever they send my way, but I balked and decided to just pretend the idea never happened. I didn't want to bother anyone. On Monday night the 31st Mark Bjerke had an idea, the next morning he surprised me with envelopes from the 1st until the 28th of song ideas that I must write about, and I can't look at them until the day of. I have posted a few to you tube but the first song I just recorded on garage band. I am so excited to not only exercise my songwriting skills this month but also my piano/guitar playing and time budgeting. At first I felt so selfish as to give myself time to "create" but once I started to view it as exercising, I couldn't get enough. I give myself 20-45 minutes to write and push my brain to think of rhymes and chords. Sometimes the songs end up silly, like one I wrote for all the pets I lost, and some ended up more serious about friendships that are no longer. I feel like I am a little girl again. I know that sounds funny but I have never felt so light-hearted since Mark provided me with this little project. Every day feels so brand new. I am so lucky to have a man that pushes me to live better and who likes to hear silly jingles and songs that I write.
If you're interested in hearing any of the songs just click the link below.
click here to go to the youtube channel
